NYC

New York is the greatest city in the world, or is it? I've never lived anywhere else except for NYC. I love it, but I think I am getting tired of it. I think my biggest problem with living in NYC is that I don't like the people who live here. I love how open minded we are as a community. I love living in a place that is full of liberal minded people rather than a bunch of people who are still stuck in the 1950s when it comes to thoughts about race and women. But I can't stand the sudden increase of hipster lifestyle. People who want to make compost and only eat vegan and are just general snobs about everything. I don't fit in with those kinds of people.

Sometimes I go outside and I just feel so out of place because everyone is walking around all hip and cool drinking their special craft beers and what not. When did NYC become this place? Anyway, the point is, I used to love NYC, but I think that my love is starting to die down a bit. Sometimes I think that I would like to move to another city, but I don't know where else I could go. Is there even a better city in the US than NYC? Does it make sense that everyone in the world dreams of living here, but I'd like to get out? I wouldn't want to live in a place where people need to drive everywhere since I don't know how to drive. Driving is really expensive too anyway right? I want to live somewhere that I can walk lots.

If I really had a choice of living anywhere, I'd like to go to Europe. I think that would be the change that I really in need in my life. I want to be someplace where the people are very different than the kind fo people that I am used to.

And before I forget I like this blog

Things

I never know what to do outdoors. If I'm inside, I can think of a zillion things to keep me occupied. There are tons of things that I need to get done and accomplish. But the minute I'm like "hey where should we go today" I can't think of a single interesting thing to do outside. There's not a lot of things to do for free. Every thing costs money. Going to restaurants, going shopping. What is there to do outside that doesn't involve buying things. I like going for walks and going to parks and such. But there has to be more right?

This issue means that I can easily stay indoors all of the time. There are so many people who can't be inside for long amounts of times. They need to go out always. I always wonder what it is these people do when they go outside. Are they just popping into stores and looking at things? WHERE ARE THEY GOING? This is nuts for me because I live in New York. There are tons of things to do here. Except not. I mean there's only so many times you can look at stores.

I always feel responsible for activities too. If I make plans with friends, I feel like it's up to me to think of something interesting to do, but then I freak out because I can't think of anything creative. Because what is it that you do when going out with people? I could easily eat at restaurants all the time, but all of that money spent really adds up. I think that I have the tendency to overthink things like that, which is why I need a blog to let out all of my coocoo thoughts.

College

Choosing a college major is crazy. You're incredibly young and you're sent to this place where you have to be independent for the first time. And then you're expected to make such a big decision. Usually, when you are that young you just really have no idea what to do with yourself. I know I didn't. I think that if I had started college now, I would have made better decisions than I did when I went to college 3 years ago. I couldn't figure out what I wanted to do with myself. I didn't know what it felt like trying to get a job. It just seemed like I could do whatever and figure it out later. Now I regret not doing something that I really had a passion for.

I chose a major that I thought would be practical since being as young as I was, I thought that that was what you were supposed to do. I said, "hey this major is going to get me some jobs right, so I guess I'll do that" but the problem is, when you don't like the thing that you major in, you aren't going to want to go for those type of jobs, so it ends up being a waste anyway. If I'd have realized that back then, then I probably would never have settled for doing the major that I did.

Now I am stuck with a degree that I have no desire to use. In fact, I basically have a degree in something that I hate more than anything else in the world. What I do to make money now doesn't even involve a degree, so I easily could have saved money not going to college and I'd still be doing the same thing with my life right now. I should have taken a gap year.